Sunday, 26 October 2014

The Ordinary Moments - Lonely Uni Work

Unfortunately this has become an ordinary moment for me. I've found I get a lot more work done at home rather than in the library, so whenever possible I go home to get some work done between lectures. Even though I choose to be at home there is one thing I really don't like about it, the house feels empty and quiet so I'm sat there feeling lonely.

I know Osian will be having so much more fun in nursery than sat at home with me doing work, but I can't help but wish him to be at home with me. It's been 4 weeks since I've gone to uni, but I think I'm still in the adjusting period and I'm still finding it hard.

I feel a little sad writing this, sat at the fact this has become an ordinary moment, sad at the fact I'm not at home all day with my baby.

I do really appreciate my Wednesdays off though, I love having that day in the middle of the week that Osian doesn't have to go to nursery and we can do whatever we fancy for the day. Maybe the lonely moments make me enjoy these days even more?
I'm hoping I appreciate this day fully every week this semester because my timetable's going to be fuller after Christmas and I doubt I will get a day off.



6 comments:

  1. It is so strange being home without any children isn't it - it always feels too quiet to me too!

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  2. I think this is amazing that you are going to uni. I know it's hard right how but you should be so proud of yourself, little O will be proud of you too! University is hard enough as it is, let alone with a baby!! Keep up the amazing work mama xx

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  3. It must feel very strange and lonely being at home whilst Osian is at nursery and will take some getting used to - you are doing great by going back though and glad you are enjoying having Wednesdays at home together. Hope all is going well with your uni work x

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  4. When I was separated from my three by work I always thought of it as a means to an end. It is so, so difficult, but you are doing such a brilliant thing for yourself and your little family. And those times you have with little O I'm sure are treasured all the more xxx

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  5. I work from home two days a week and I agree it is really strange being there without little ones. Although I am a year in and I actually really enjoy it, but then I have always found it quite peaceful with my own company. Hopefully it will get easier for you as you settle in more. x

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  6. I can feel the heaviness in this post. I am also studying but cant quite get to it (Im using Open Learning so I dont have a deadline). I can only imagine your longing when you are at home. Im glad you have some days where you are with him. I know how much you treasure these days =) #TheOrdinaryMoments

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