Monday, 29 September 2014

Where has the time gone!?

I really can't believe that today's the day I return to uni. I haven't been in about 15 months! Uni summer holidays are roughly around 3 months, once term started again I had a month left of my pregnancy but I was taking a deferred year so that was time off for me too. Plus I've had 11 months of being at home with Osian. Before he was born I thought 11 months would be loads of time and seemed really far off, and I'm in a little state of shock that today it has come to an end and I'm going back to uni.

I wrote a post about 6 weeks ago about my thoughts on returning. After having a quick read through it I know I feel the same, but I can't think properly about it because it's all a bit clouded by this feeling of dread. I'm just dreading the whole change. It's something I have to do though, not that anyone is forcing me, but it's something I have to do for Osian, and something I have to also do for myself. Actually scratch that I don't have to do it, it's something I want to do, I want to be further educated and get the qualifications needed for the job I would like to achieve.

Although I feel very guilty leaving Osian, along with the fact I just don't want to. I know it will be for the best in the long run, I just need patience along with some hard work and we can get there.

Even though the months have gone by way too fast, and that I'm wishing I could stay at home for a bit longer, I still do really appreciate the fact we have had such a long time.

Time as gone insanely fast, it feels like it was only a couple of weeks ago Osian was only a tiny newborn..




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  1. Aw really hope today went well. I bet the cuddles and smiles on your return were priceless xx

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    1. Thank you. I got a loud 'hiya' when I got home :) xx

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  2. You're such an inspiration going back and achieving what you want, osian is going to be so proud of his mummy :). Hope today went well xx

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    1. Thank you :) I hope he is, hadn't thought of that, makes me feel a bit better about going too xx

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  3. It must be hard going back - hope today went well and you enjoyed lots of smiles and cuddles when you got back home again x

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    1. Thank you. He was too excited showing me things to sit down and cuddle, but was a nice welcome home xx

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  4. Good luck, and when you find you're missing him during the day just remember the lovely cuddles he gives you when you get home again.

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  5. I hope it goes well! It will be different but I'm sure you will both become accustomed to the new way.

    Emma | frillsanddoodads.com

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  6. aw really hope the week has gone ok for you? #binkylinky

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  7. I hope today goes ok. It must be hard leaving Osian, that's understandable. Thanks for linking up to the #binkylinky

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  8. Although it will be hard to leave him the pride he will have in what you achieve your degree will make it all worthwhile. I hope it goes well x #binkylinky

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  9. I hope that your first few days back at uni were ok , i am sure that it will get easier and you will be able to look back in years to come and feel proud of yourself for juggling being a student and a mother and you will be able to get the job that you want and build a lovely future for Osian xx #Binkylinky

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