I really can't believe that today's the day I return to uni. I haven't been in about 15 months! Uni summer holidays are roughly around 3 months, once term started again I had a month left of my pregnancy but I was taking a deferred year so that was time off for me too. Plus I've had 11 months of being at home with Osian. Before he was born I thought 11 months would be loads of time and seemed really far off, and I'm in a little state of shock that today it has come to an end and I'm going back to uni.
I wrote a post about 6 weeks ago about my thoughts on returning. After having a quick read through it I know I feel the same, but I can't think properly about it because it's all a bit clouded by this feeling of dread. I'm just dreading the whole change. It's something I have to do though, not that anyone is forcing me, but it's something I have to do for Osian, and something I have to also do for myself. Actually scratch that I don't have to do it, it's something I want to do, I want to be further educated and get the qualifications needed for the job I would like to achieve.
Although I feel very guilty leaving Osian, along with the fact I just don't want to. I know it will be for the best in the long run, I just need patience along with some hard work and we can get there.
Even though the months have gone by way too fast, and that I'm wishing I could stay at home for a bit longer, I still do really appreciate the fact we have had such a long time.
Time as gone insanely fast, it feels like it was only a couple of weeks ago Osian was only a tiny newborn..