We are 12 weeks into breastfeeding, so thought I'd write a post on how it has gone so far.
A lot of people seem to be surprised that I've chosen to breastfeed I'm not sure why, maybe because of my age. Before Osian was born I just thought I'd give it a go and see how it goes. When I was thinking about breastfeeding before he was born I don't think I'd have really minded if for whatever reason I couldn't breastfeed. But once he was born I just knew this was how I wanted to feed him and think I would have been upset if I had to stop for whatever reason. Even though it was so sore at the start and one day the thought of giving up did creep in my head but I knew I just had to carry on. I was very lucky though and the soreness was only there for a few days, compared to a few weeks like a lot women get.
I don't think I was really prepared for breastfeeding before I started. I had no idea how sore it would be at the start or that I'd struggle to get my baby to latch on. I had no idea how often he would need fed, with sometimes as little as 15 minutes between feeds, or how long it could take to feed him. I had no idea that babies tend to cluster feed in evening, which can take up to 6 hours some evenings! It can get quite uncomfortable sitting in the same spot for so long, but I would much rather do this and Osian take enough milk to be able to sleep for a longer period at night. I also thought I'd easily express milk but my god it takes ages! Maybe it's because I've got a manual pump, or I just give up too quickly. I mentioned about sometimes feeds being 15 minutes apart, but other times during the day can be a few hours between feeds and so far 8 hours has been the longest time he's slept for at night without waking up to be fed.
I am not very confident when it comes to feeding in public. Not that I think there is anything wrong with it, it's a natural thing to do, I just personally can't seem to do it, with only managing to feed in front of a few people. I usually end up going to sit in the car if I'm out and about.
It is very handy at nighttime that I just need to pick Osian up and sit down in bed and can start feeding him straight away, I'm glad I don't need to get up and do anymore. Even though it can be very tiring that I'm the only one who can get him back to sleep meaning I'm up everytime he's up. Especially when you can hear snoring right next to you, I get a bit jealous sometimes!
If Osian falls asleep feeding when he's finished he lifts his head and leans on me like a pillow, which I love and during the day sometimes just let him stay there cause he doesn't seem to nap in his moses basket during the day. But he does sleep in his moses basket at night time, even if he wakes up I keep putting him back until he stays asleep for the night. I'm starting to think maybe one day I'll regret nursing him to sleep because I'm thinking now maybe he won't be able to fall asleep on his own, but this is how I've always got him to sleep and think it's a comforting way to get him to sleep and I tend to over think things and worry a lot so think I'd worry he hadn't been fed enough before putting him down if he hadn't been nursed to sleep.
Apart from the sorness at the start, breastfeeding is going well, so far so good! I am very glad I choose to breastfeed. I'm hoping that since we've gotten this far without any problems that we will easily continue to breastfeed until whenever is the right time for us to stop.